So, Thunder came back because he bit one of his new owner's dogs and now he's totally changed. He has this wasted look, some of his old spark is gone and that really kills me to see it. He still listens and trusts me but I can't help but think he feels more than a little betrayed. These animals do not deserve this, we're stewards of this planet but that doesn't mean we can do whatever the hell we want. I see people who totally lose the plot and forget why they're doing what they're doing...or they're just doing it to fulfill some sociopathic desire to feel important. I don't get it, I can not comprehend hurting another soul or making another souls life miserable and not feeling a thing...No guilt, sometimes guilt comes after but by then its too late...I might sound unhinged sometimes but I measure and calculate everything I say and do, I make sure that the means justify the ends; not the other way round. The bullshit people do is sometimes beyond insanity, so self destructive but people forget there is collateral to every explosion. I've been down that road by myself, I've survived by myself and I still give a shit...I still have the strength to care, it bloody hurts like hell sometimes but I'd give my life for what I love...It sickens me to see people give in...give in to jealousy and greed...give in because its easy...give in because its just too tiring to prove that there's something occupying that cavity inside their chests...These people have never seen true hurt or pain...never had to experience real loss...never had to realize that sometimes the sun is just a Truman show style facade that sometimes you have to walk away from something to see it in its true form...Well I see it, I see the dark before the light because that's what makes or breaks every living thing in existence...its how we emerge from the dark...That resolve, that strength, that 'I-still-give-a-shit' look...I see that in my best friend, I see that in the people at the spca and I even see it in the eyes of those souls we're stewards of and it just makes me want to kick myself when I get upset over all the mundane, trivial bollocks in my life...