If you ever asked some of the people I know to tell you something unique about themselves....
Azlan: " I'm get too lazy to type the "ha-s" in a long "haha" so it ends up like, "hahahahahahkfhgyeifvasjeynw"...I also think technology is a biatch and that computers are dumb bitches "
Sham: " My other nick name is Mala and I like cleaning and housework ...You dont even have to ask, I'll just spontaneously clean!, I also get scared alot...(Bird flies past *Screams*) What was that!? "
Grace: " I'm allergic to to a gang of stuff, I sound like a 5 year old when I sing...And I also have a sarcastic, yet genuine laugh "
Mr Sim: " My leg falls asleep when I walk, I like belly buttons and I hate the word 'different' "
Bro: " I fart and talk shit in my sleep "
Sham & Grace: " Vik's laptop turn us on! (Laptop 'ejects' disc tray) "
And if you asked me...
" I'm random, hyperactive and very, very easily bored"
Aite, Im bored man, its damn obvious...Just hope I dont offend anyone, hehe...
I'll post some random facts from now on...Since I'm watching animal planet... and CNN right now, I'll post stuff I just saw and heard...
Did you know that:
Humbolt squid can grow up to six feet, travel in packs and will literally 'beat' the crap out of you if you mess with a member of the group...
Crocs hate the smell of cigarettes and freak the hell out when they do...
George Bush pronounces the word 'Nuclear' as 'Nu-Cu-Lear" and he once said "I was impressed every day by how hard and how skillful our team was."
Eh!?...'Hard' and 'Skillful'...Err...Okaaay...What kind of a government you running eh?...Hey George, When you finnal get the 'other' meaning of what you said, do me a favour and laugh at youself....Hahahahaha...Shtupid feller...
P.S. Boredom's not a burden anyone should bear
BYE.
1:05 AM
Okay, I would like to state how MY mind deals with anger...at certain individual/s...If I dont express this to that person/s it gets converted to hyperactivity, a short attention span, hightened randomness and more importantly....a very short fuse.
I experienced the first three from the moment I woke up yesterday morning...went biking, worked out and actually cleaned my room...I then pigged out on ice-cream while chatting with grace and sham...
Was being damn random but cohesively humorous...theres no sport in disturbing sham cause she makes me feel guilty, whenever i do...though grace is still surprisingly 'quick on the draw'....
Haha...the beauty of properly misdirected anger...Even grace asked "should i be scared or worried?"...classic
But, then theres still the last...'Symptom'...The short fuse
So...I decided to allow myself talk to some people whom...I dont exactly, have 'goodwill' toward...and when I say people, I dont mean just one...It may come as a surprise to them; but hey I tried to look past it, sometimes its just to crystal freakin clear... cant see that person with the same trust and empathy you saw them before...I'm not hypersensitive but somethings are just too close to let some else take a piss on...Only when the shit hits you in the face, you learn to duck or get out...I've done the first, didnt work, so plan B...I fight my own fights...I think these people are patronzing, antagonzing, malicious, superficial, hypocrtical, immature, untruthful and the worst...ignorant...I dont know if I'm a generally nice person...Hell, I dont really care...But for fuck sake dont push someone just because they're patient and 'nice' to you about the shit you throw their way...I'm patient, but I hate people who test it... And I hate people who lie while knowing that another person might be royally fucked; in every sense of the word, because of it...Who cares right?...Well a 'friend' would...I wonder if it was just to watch me squirm in my indecision...So thank you for lieing to me cause I would have never seen you for who you really are...
I hope to god no one ask's for an explanation...Because I will blow this way out of proportion just to see what happens...since everyone loves to test and push the limit....Frankly, the things I have to say will not be nice, to say the least...And for the record, I'm not angry...Not yet...Fuck with some else, I've seen a million people change but I'll stay the same...But I sure as hell dont know you anymore...I refuse to...Hmph...Guess I was a hypocrite for a little bit eh?...Never again...
P.S. Your friendship and good times we had...You can have them back
BYE.
2:20 AM
I'm bored, I've got nothing to do...I need to go out and do some shit!...Someone, save me from this boredom...oh pretty please...
BYE.
11:53 PM
BYE.
5:00 PM
Something got me thinking today. Maybe because I'm gonna have to say goodbue to an era in my life or maybe because I've had to say one too many goodbyes in the past year but...I asked myself a question...Do I keep these connections I've made with the people around me and put myself through the pain of goodbye? Or do I force them away or force myself away from them so theres no one to say goodbye to?...I think I'm being a little selfish about this cause I'll still end up hurting someone...I sometimes question whether its destiny or fate that puts me through this...whether theres some purpose. I can say one thing though, its made me stronger...or is it just all still bottled up?...I dunno anymore. The people around have other lives away from me and...more important people to care about...thats a fact. Well, I've never been one to want to cling on to someone like a safety blanket. I guess it all boils down to how much I'm willing to let go...Namely friends who are willing to work with me for a friendship and not just a one way street...More importantly one where no one is made use of....I'm really gonna miss this part of my life and I hope that whatever connections that stay or that I decide to keep are the right ones...and ones that I dont have to say goodbye to.
P.S. Nothing good about goodbye...
BYE.
11:42 PM
I'm sitting at home hating the fact I cant be in school with my buds cause I've got a sore throat and runny nose. Apparently, everyone got pissed with the faci and they're not in class now. As far as I know, they're all watching the Mr and Ms RP thingy.
The whole week has been pretty touch and go for me, really saddening to think about the fact the class wont be together in three days and I doubt this emotional fool can hold it together at then end of Monday's lesson. But anyways, I'll recap the week so far.
Monday was boring more VB bullshit I didnt go for the first few lesson so I just helpedout as much as I could. Grace and Sham were in my group, which was defintely a plus. So I just listened and watched them figure out the codes. THey day was really drab and we all just hung awhile after class and went home.
Tuesday, was better as it wast culture and the faci volunteered some money for us to get canadian pizza. We took that opportunity to get Azlan to talk to them in hilarious voices and ask stupid questions. Sham, Grace and myself headed down to causeway point to get some thank you cards for the facis. Came back, the pizzas only reached quite a while later. We all ate the six pizzas, I didnt touch it cause i lost my appetite suddenly. Hung out again after school and walked to the MRT station together with Sham's friend's friends...awkward to say the least..
Wednesday, cognitive was boring as hell. It was kinda of a recap of all we have ever learned through the whole semester. Sham and Grace were in my group again, we only researched a bit and then finished the ppt quite quickly. Some people left, so thing started getting really boring. So I resorted to teaching Sham the meaning of some songs she liked i.e. My Happy Ending and introducing her to some of my favourite bands...still gotta pass her some songs.
Thursday, I was sad from the moment I stepped on to our floor at 7:45 in the morning. The empty floor really gave me some perspective on the importance of people, and friends in particular in a persons life. Sham couldnt make it, which made it a little sadder but I managed to still have some fun with Pat, Sam, Lan, Grace and especially Mr.Sim. Was disturbing him about Valerie the whole day, plus correcting his pronounciation of different as drifferent. He was nice enough to drive Grace, Xue Ying, Melissa and myself to causeway point to get KFC for the class with his own money, he volunteered $100 bucks, but Grace and I managed to keep it with in $5o; used our own money for the rest of the drinks and cups. We all enjoyed the KFC lunch without making a mess (surprisingly). He then dedicated a song to us which was really touching. I forgot the title, but it was really nice...nearly lost it at one point, so I pretended it was fake and laughed.
The week was fun, some really good memories to carry on wish I could make it last a little longer. Now, there Monday, the last lesson before the end of the semester. I really hope I can hold it together, cause I know a couple of people who wont be able to take seeing me cry...so for their sake...I'll do my best to keep happy and plug the water works. Probably, buy a whole bunch of candy for the class, hopefully this sore throat goes away so I can also eat. I really gonna miss this class...but I'm not ready to say goodbye just yet...
P.S. Its The Final Countdown, Na,Na,Na,Na; Na Na Na Na.....
BYE.
1:08 PM
Just a couple of songs that made me think...
CROSSFADE - Colors
Can you feel it crush you?
Does it seem to bring the worst in you out?
There's no running away from these things that hold you down
Do they complicate you because they make you feel like this?
Of all the colors that you've shined this is surely not your best
But you should know these colors that you're shining are...
Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine
I know you feel alone, yeah, and no one else can figure you out
But don't you ever turn away from the ones that help you down?
Well they'd love to save you.
Don't you know they love to see you smile?
But these colors that you've shined are surely not your style
Surely not the best colors that you shine
Surely not the best colors that you shine
STAIND - Falling Down
What's happened to you?
It's obvious you've changed
Something deep inside you is probably to blame
Must be lonely up there with your head up in the clouds
Even though you got there what does your conscience tell you now?
It's never the same on the way down
How does it feel when your feet finally hit the ground?
When all of your bridges aren't around
And the sandcastles you built are falling down
P.S. The Resonant Effect...
BYE.
5:00 PM
Lets start with yesterday...
Our cognitive faci didnt come cause he went to thailand or something so we had this lady faci, who looked like a student and kinda had the same jacket as shuyuan...which more than one person pointed out. The problem was boring as hell so im not getting in to that, but the class seriously took advantage og the fact that charles wasnt around, especially my group. Gwace decided to join our group again...therefore re-uniting our CE point science team, but those two seriously can make alot of noise, especially if you start making fun of them. But the funniest part was when Gwace and Sham started to 'molest' my laptop, they were like rubbing the screen and making wierd sounds, so I decided to play along and make the thing climax by popping out the CD tray...their reaction was an explosion of laughter and me being whacked for being 'perverted'...hey im not the one who molested the thing in the 1st place. Then Yulin started getting all excited, not even knowing what happened...bugger horny seh. Hah, the the best was when during the 6p Pat was irritating Shuyuan by not letting him move his chair back so, he turns around and whacks him on the thigh damn hard, the whole class goes quiet including the faci; then Pat says " You hit like a girl man" still with the stunned face...priceless
Today was fun too, we were all talking bout the S'pore vs Thai match, especially the cheers. There was also the fact that someone had a failing air -horn at the stadium, half -way the sound will just break lah, bloody ridiculous..sounded like an inconsistent fart. Then started doing the 'buto......buto' chant whenever Mr Sim did something we didnt agree with and Azlan even chanted 'MJ, kayu' when he didnt want to extend the submission deadline for the RJ. Azlan,Pat,Sam and myself went to eat at W4 after class...okay THEY went to eat. Pat and Azlan brought up the fact that they've never seen me eat a proper meal...I claimed I did though they didnt seem to remember that...Then they started asking if I ate at home...at one point Azlan went ask who cooked in my house...but it came out as "Who cooooks?" his voice breaking mid sentence...Pat and Sam heard it too and we all burst out laughing...then I pointed out that one of Pat's eyeballs goes a little spastic when he laughs...which made us laugh even more...think I pulled a muscle laughing sooo hard...god damn that was funny...thats about it for today...got science tomorrow...which I hate cause the faci is damn kiam with the grades...just hope the problem is easy ah
BYE.
6:15 PM