Something got me thinking today. Maybe because I'm gonna have to say goodbue to an era in my life or maybe because I've had to say one too many goodbyes in the past year but...I asked myself a question...Do I keep these connections I've made with the people around me and put myself through the pain of goodbye? Or do I force them away or force myself away from them so theres no one to say goodbye to?...I think I'm being a little selfish about this cause I'll still end up hurting someone...I sometimes question whether its destiny or fate that puts me through this...whether theres some purpose. I can say one thing though, its made me stronger...or is it just all still bottled up?...I dunno anymore. The people around have other lives away from me and...more important people to care about...thats a fact. Well, I've never been one to want to cling on to someone like a safety blanket. I guess it all boils down to how much I'm willing to let go...Namely friends who are willing to work with me for a friendship and not just a one way street...More importantly one where no one is made use of....I'm really gonna miss this part of my life and I hope that whatever connections that stay or that I decide to keep are the right ones...and ones that I dont have to say goodbye to.
P.S. Nothing good about goodbye...
BYE.
11:42 PM